Last night I got to talk to Cupcake on Skype for the first time since December. We talk on Xbox Live everyday but this was different. Xbox Live muffles the voice and Skype was as clear as a bell, I almost didn’t recognize him! I was so excited just to hear his voice that way and the whole time I wanted to cry. He doesn’t quite understand what that whole incident did to me emotionally. The fact that I even still get to talk to him is enough to make me happy but now I’m getting Skype Cupcake tonight again!
I had a horrible dream last night about him. We were on XBL and he told me he didn’t want to talk to me anymore. I woke up immediately and the relief that washed over me was unreal! I grabbed pillow Cupcake and squeezed as tightly as possible. I have never been so happy about waking up before!
Then the dream that followed was just awesome. Cupcake and I were in this room, apparently our room in our future home, and he was singing in the bathroom as he was getting ready to go somewhere in just a towel. I opened my eyes and he looked over at me and said, “You gonna get ready soon, hun?” I said yes and got up but he told me he would meet me ‘there’ wherever that was. It turned out to be a wedding or something similar and I kept looking at the door to see if he was coming in yet but he hadn’t shown up yet. I was just about to give up and he appeared behind me placing a hand on my shoulder. He leaned down and whispered into my ear, “Boo.” Just like my Cupcake! ^__^