Today was just horrible. First, I fell asleep, which I never do anymore because it will keep me up late, and the dogs kept waking me up. I needed sleep considering they keep waking me up at 6am everyday.
Second, I haven’t been able to talk to Cupcake for two days now. His internet isn’t working right now and it’s been horrible not being able to hear his voice like normal. I have a hard enough time dealing with our relationship, having that taken away is making it even more difficult. Ours is not an easy one and its taking its toll on me this week. I love him dearly and I don’t want to lose him that’s for sure. We were playing DOA4 and I kept kicking his butt. I didn’t mean to, it’s just that I’ve been practicing a lot lately so I can go kick some 13 year old ninja butt online. I wasn’t paying attention and I forgot. I’m not like that at all, I always think of others when I’m playing. He’s super competitive, I should have thought first. I have no one to blame but myself. That was very selfish of me. :(
Then before I said something stupid or got into a real fight with him, which I don’t want right now at all, I signed off the net and sent him a PM at CE. I just know I’m being neurotic tonight because I don’t feel well. And I’m cranky from lack of sleep. I just hope I didn’t tick off Cupcake too much. I hope he knows how much I love him and that signing off was probably the best thing considering how I felt. A good night’s rest can make a world of difference and I hope tomorrow I feel a little better and his net comes back soon.