Insanity Squared

Well, I’m almost done getting ready to hit the airport! I’ve got almost all my laundry done and I have checked the limitations for packing: no liquids, no sharp pointy objects or weapons, and no terrorists stashed in my carry-on luggage. Check, check and….check! PHL is a busy airport so I have to be there way ahead of schedule: 2 hours. The taxi picks me up at 3:15am and I get to the airport by 4am. Then I get to go through security! Let’s just hope the man with the rubber glove is in a good mood tonight. XD

When I get there I have to go to the store and buy all my bathroom stuff. Made a list and I’m good to go! I’m very excited about this trip! Jen and I will be the first spammers to meet in person! This is awesome! I am going to buy a digital video camera when I get there so we can record everything and make vids. LOL! Plus I packed my regular digital camera so I can get plenty of pictures! I think Angie is gonna stop over one night too! That will be cool.  10 hours to go before I leave!

Whenever I go walk to pick my son up or take him to school, I always try to bundle up if its really cold out, so I put on layers. Today I had on two pairs of pants to keep my legs warm when I went to pick him up. I came home, sat on the computer for a while then got up to go to the bathroom. While in there I decided to remove my outer pair of pants because I was getting hot.

I reached down and pulled one pant leg off and lost my balance. I stumbled backwards, the back of my leg hit the side of the bathtub and I fell backwards into the tub and smashed my head on the ceramic tile wall. I could feel myself falling and on the way down, I muttered, “Oh !@#$,” and thinking about that now just makes me laugh. It was almost cartoonish in style!

So my mom said it sounded like we were being bombed! My brother and dad ran upstairs and started screaming, “Are you ok?”. I yelled, “Don’t come in!” because my shirt had somehow flipped up and my bra covered chest was hanging out! Not to mention my top pair of pants was hanging off one leg!  So, I managed to pull myself up from the bathtub and came back to my room with a giggle. Oh boy, that’s not the first time I’ve fallen that bad either. World’s biggest clutz here. XD

Today just sucked. I was on the computer all day doing website stuff and I kept getting this feeling inside…I can’t quite describe it. Oh wait, I know what that is! It’s utter boredom and loneliness! Yeah, that’s it and I know who to blame for that! No…not Nate this time! Some of you know.

Letter to the person responsible for my crap day: I know deep down inside that you are a jerk and always will be. People like you make me sick. I am the type of person who always looks for the good in people but I can honestly say that you don’t have one ounce of goodness in you where I’m concerned. You hurt me and you continue to hurt me every day and you are probably sitting back laughing about it right now…a victorious smile in your heart. And you probably will win in the end because things will most likely happen the way you want. He’ll forget all about me and I’ll be left to pick up the pieces of my heart once again. But this time there may not be anything left. This time I may just give up and sink into that shallow pit of despair…right where you want me. So you win! Thanks! I’ll just sit in the corner over there and let everyone throw rocks at me. But what do you care, right?

I’m not in a good mood.