Insanity Squared

I have spent the last three weeks sick as a dog trying to get things done. It’s hard to rest when you keep feeling like things need to be finished! I spent most of the last three weeks in bed, sneezing, coughing, and losing my voice. Headaches became the normal thing every evening around dinner time. I’m sure all the Advil I popped has eaten a lovely hole in my liver. Not to mention the insane amounts of cough medicine I gulped down. One night I even took too much and was flying so high that I thought I saw the Care Bears on TV when it was a commercial for car insurance.

I have to do some wash this weekend because it’s getting backed up. I have a ton of stupid sheets to wash…which by the way is my least favorite thing to fold! Plus I have to help Tommy with his report for GS and on top of that try to get some rest so I can offically get over this never ending cold!

Last night I got to talk to Cupcake on Skype for the first time since December. We talk on Xbox Live everyday but this was different. Xbox Live muffles the voice and Skype was as clear as a bell, I almost didn’t recognize him! I was so excited just to hear his voice that way and the whole time I wanted to cry. He doesn’t quite understand what that whole incident did to me emotionally. The fact that I even still get to talk to him is enough to make me happy but now I’m getting Skype Cupcake tonight again!

I had a horrible dream last night about him. We were on XBL and he told me he didn’t want to talk to me anymore. I woke up immediately and the relief that washed over me was unreal! I grabbed pillow Cupcake and squeezed as tightly as possible. I have never been so happy about waking up before!

Then the dream that followed was just awesome. Cupcake and I were in this room, apparently our room in our future home, and he was singing in the bathroom as he was getting ready to go somewhere in just a towel. I opened my eyes and he looked over at me and said, “You gonna get ready soon, hun?”  I said yes and got up but he told me he would meet me ‘there’ wherever that was. It turned out to be a wedding or something similar and I kept looking at the door to see if he was coming in yet but he hadn’t shown up yet. I was just about to give up and he appeared behind me placing a hand on my shoulder. He leaned down and whispered into my ear, “Boo.”  Just like my Cupcake!  ^__^

I GOT FLOWERS IN THE MAIL TODAY!  They were delayed due to bad weather but they got here! ^_^ The card read, “If this sender you can name, all their kisses you can claim. Hope you get it right. Someone close.”

I almost peed my pants from excitement. Well, most of you know who this person is and the reason his name must stay anonymous. But for those who don’t, let me just say that this guy is AMAZING! The flowers were beautiful! Red and pink roses in a frosted glass vase and just elegant! Never have I gotten flowers for Valentine’s Day! ^_^

I hope I’m not gloating here, but my guy is the best in the whole world! I don’t know what I did to deserve such a sweet guy! He makes me forget how sick I am. He makes me feel like I’m beautiful and that I mean something besides being this sick person.  squeee!