It’s been entirely too long since I last posted here but I’ve been sick. I was having fevers again and I spent a lot of time in bed just trying to better. School also started back up again this week and I was reluctantly trying to get things in order. I was feeling a little better then last night I had an allergic reaction to something I ate and I have no clue what it was. I spent most of today feeling sleepy and itchy.
Folks, hold onto your seats because it finally happened…I got my Learners Permit for driving. Yes, 32 years old and I’m just now learning how to drive. It’s a horrible phobia of mine because I’ve been in so many car accidents. I fear the other people on the road and adverse conditions like ice and rain. So far, I drove once in an empty parking lot and broke out in a sweat and cried a little. I’m such a spaz when it comes to this but I have to overcome it. If I’m going to leave the city after school then I have to learn how to drive…not to mention I hate asking people to drive me places.
Not that I didn’t already know this but my boyfriend is by far the most amazing man in the entire world. He reminds me everyday how lucky I am and sometimes I swear I’m dreaming. Where the hell has he been all my life? I realize our age difference annoys people but to be honest I don’t really care anymore. There is no way this could be wrong! For two years almost now we’ve standed the test of ridicule and opinions from people we didn’t ask for. He says he wants to marry me and I can’t think of another man I’d like to spend the rest of my life with. I only hope I’m worthy enough of his love. I can’t wait until he comes here to visit for the first time. All this time and I feel like I’ve waited long enough. I just want to hold him in my arms even if it’s just for one second…I’d hold onto that moment forever. =(
My son goes back to school this week and I have to pay $500 this month to the school. This is insane! That leaves me with less than $200 to live on for the month. *sigh* I wish I could handle a job but I keep getting these sick spells. We’ll see what happens after they put me back on Remicade. *fingers crossed*
