Insanity Squared

Let Love In

Sousuke stared out the window of his small apartment across the street from Kaname’s place still feeling a bit uneasy about what happened in Northern Canada. The idea that Amalgam could kidnap him and almost pull off his assassination raised every red flag in his head. But it was behind him for now and he wanted to move on and recuperate from the ordeal. They had missed so much work at school and it was going to take weeks to get caught up.

Kurz and Melissa had offered to hang around to make sure things were safe and Wraith was watching from the rooftops. Things felt unsettled but at the same time somewhat resolved. He figured it was going to take some time before he felt even an ounce of security. He had been betrayed, trusted the wrong people and had almost paid for it with his very life.

Just then his cell phone rang. “Sagara,” he said placing it to his ear.

“Hello, Sergeant,” he heard Lieutenant Amy Miller say on the other end.

“Lieutenant Miller.”

“I’m glad I caught you. Are you busy?”

He continued to stare out the window waiting to see Kaname’s bedroom light go out. “Not at all.”

“First off, I’m glad that you and Miss Chidori are home safe. On behalf of the United States Army we’d like to thank you for stopping that man, Nathaniel Pascal. Our sources tell us that he was behind the attack on Las Vegas among other numerous things.”

Sousuke knew better. There was only one man solely responsible for that attack.

“And we were more than happy to help out Mithril in Canada. If it weren’t for that decoy in Washington D.C. we would have been there a lot sooner.” She took a deep breath and continued. “Though, what I really called about is…do you remember the experimental drug that we gave you to speed up your healing at Fort Dix?”

“Yes.”

Amy continued. “The doctor’s were so impressed with your success that they decided to run some more trials on a larger group here on the base. And I just felt the need to warn you of some possible side effects that popped up later on for some of the patients.”

Sousuke’s right eyebrow arched in curiosity. “Side effects?”

“Nothing major,” she quickly added.

He hadn’t felt anything at all since he had received the treatment.

“They tend to disappear within a few days and were only described as mild and slightly bothersome,” she said a smile in her voice. “Have you experienced anything? If so, could you please be specific; the doctor asked me to jot down some notes for him to add to the study.”

“No, there have been no side effects,” he quickly stated.

“Could you call me if you experience anything usual? It appears that each subject reacted differently and the doctor is curious how it will affect you.”

“I will do that, Lieutenant, thank you,” he said clapping his phone shut.

“Thanks, Sergeant,” she said ending the call.

Staring across the way Sousuke watched as Kaname’s bedroom light finally went out and he walked to his own bedroom quietly. He laid down on the mat under his bed and closed his eyes. He was really tired from studying and was looking forward to getting a good night’s rest. They only had the weekend before midterms began the following Monday.

*  *  *

A couple of days later he sat in Chidori’s apartment as they studied once again for the midterms. Kaname was getting edgy the closer it got to the midterms and Sousuke was feeling stressed himself. The last thing he needed was to be held back because of their little unexpected trip across the globe.

“A swimming pool is 30m wide, 50m long and 7m deep. After an earthquake, the pool is tilted along one edge AB,” Kaname said pointing to the diagram in her notes, “and the water completely covers side ABCD. At this point, 3/4 of the base is covered by water. What was the water level before the earthquake?”

Sousuke stared at the notebook, his mind trying to comprehend the somewhat complicated word problem. He grabbed a piece of paper and began scribbling on it trying to work the problem out when a sudden strange jolt of energy burst through him and he physically jerked. Sweat began to form on his forehead and his eyes widened in shock.

He was having an utterly male moment and if it weren’t for the table hiding the offending uncontrollable action, he’d have to exit the room swiftly. He didn’t understand—he was always able to stifle it around her, especially after the incident at Melida Island in her room. And Kurz had told him if he wanted to stop it to think about things that had zero arousing qualities and it would go away instantly.

Except no matter what he thought about it continued to stir, his heart beating faster with each second. And his attempted neutral thoughts quickly turned to ones of longing and desire. He didn’t dare look at Chidori, he thought as he stared down at the piece of stark white paper beneath his pencil. He concentrated on the subtle blue lines as his breathing became rapid and uneven. What is going on? his mind screamed.

“Be right back,” Kaname said standing up. “I need a drink.”

The second his eyes looked up he regretted it because it sent a thousand more surges of energy through his body. He watched as she crossed the room to the kitchen his eyes tracing the silhouette of her soft legs, the way they curved so delicately into her small round backside. Stop it! If she catches me looking at her this way she’ll kill me, he thought snapping his eyes to a small figurine across the room on a shelf.

“You want anything?” she asked with a smile reaching into a cabinet for a glass.

“Damn,” he whispered as his eyes returned to her body. She was standing on one foot reaching up high to grab a glass, one of her legs bent up at the knee. His throat became very dry and his palms started sweating—he crumpled the paper in his hand without even noticing.

“Is that a yes?” she asked shooting him a cross between a confused and an annoyed glance.

He gulped loudly and took a shaky breath, “Affirmative.”

He watched unable to look away as she prepared them two cups of tea, her every move enhancing his uncomfortable situation. Why won’t this go away? he wondered shifting oddly in his seat.

“Here we go,” she said walking across the room. He physically tensed as she slightly bent down setting the small cup on the table next to him.

A whiff of her delicate scent passed just below his nostrils and he closed his eyes savoring the aroma of it. It was like a cross between some kind of exotic fruit and the very essence of…her…AHHHH! He had to get out of here before he exploded with the sheer intensity of his unwelcomed arousal.

“Did you figure out the problem yet?” she asked sitting down next to him. Her expression quickly changed to annoyance when she saw the crumpled piece of paper in his hand.

“What the heck are you doing?” She finally noticed the sudden change in his demeanor, the way he was sweating profusely, his eyes fidgety and wavering, and stared at him in bewilderment.

“Chidori…” he managed to say his eyes now wide with fear. “Something is…wrong.”

“What?” she asked angrily.

“I…have…to…go.” He began to stand up only to slam right back down in his chair. If she saw what was going on down below she would not only be insulted, she would beat him senseless. He had to make a very stealthy swift exit without her noticing or this situation would turn very ugly.

“Are you sick again or something?” she asked a little concern in her voice.

“Affirmative,” he said his voice low and husky.

She immediately became overly concerned. “Are you running a fever?” she asked placing a hand to his forehead. The feel of her skin against his was like a drug spreading liquid heat through his body and he physically shivered. Oh God, her hand is so soft, his mind echoed as he leaned into her touch. No…must…resist…

“We should get you into bed, you feel really warm,” she said grabbing his arm trying to pull him out of the chair.

Bed.

“No!” he screamed once again slamming back into the chair with a force that made the table rattle beneath him.

Kaname stared down at him a look of bemusement on her face. “What the heck is wrong with you?!” she yelled trying to drag him from the chair.

His entire body was alive and pulsing with such an intensity that he was barely able to comprehend her words and it was getting worse by the second. A nuclear explosion couldn’t make him move from the chair and he closed his eyes again trying to concentrate on anything that would yank him out of this state of extreme arousal.

Aluminum quad rail… quick release ergonomic vertical foregrip… under-barrel grenade launcher…

His blood racing, his mind turning to a puddle of mud, his senses heightened…he could only imagine this was how the pilots who took medication in order to activate their Lambda Driver’s must feel. This had to pass or he was going to be stuck in her dining room chair all night!

“Sousuke, we do not have time for this!” Kaname snapped finally giving up her attempts to remove him from the chair.

“I’m sorry, Chidori,” he admitted as more sweat began to drip down his face.

It was obvious he was trying to hide something and the longer it went on the more agitated she was becoming. This was so typically Sousuke too, she thought as she crossed her arms over her chest tapping her foot impatiently. He’s stalling for some reason! “Are you going to sit like that all night?”

Yes! he thought to himself because he was not going to make one move.

It was beginning to become unbearably uncomfortable and he fidgeted restlessly in the chair trying to shake the overwhelming arousal building within himself. His heart was beating so fast he swore any minute it would burst from his chest.

After several seconds of watching him rocking back and forth, his face sweating and red, she decided she was going to have to act quickly. A soldier like Sousuke was always prepared even under conditions like these, so she would have to be swift and cunning in order to catch him off guard.

With agility she never knew she possessed, she swung behind him grabbing the back of chair scooting it quickly backwards. She had to get him into the cold shower, he was burning up with a fever or something.

“Chidori, no!” he screamed grabbing the table pulling it with him but instead sent them both falling backwards, Chidori smashed beneath the chair.

Chidori! He jumped up flinging the chair away checking her.

“You idiot,” she mumbled rubbing the back of her head.

“Are you injured?” he asked genuine concern in his voice.

She suddenly grabbed him by his shirt and began shaking him violently. “What the heck are you doing? What is wrong with-” her words stopped mid-sentence when she looked down spying the rather large issue that seemed to be debilitating him. Her eyes widened and her cheeks blushed so red she felt like they were on fire.

His eyes widened in fear and he began sweating profusely. “Chidori, I can explain.”

“Oh,” she whispered wondering how the possibility had escaped her earlier. It wasn’t as if she expected him to be completely non-sexual with her all the time, she just had no clue how she would handle it if the moment ever arose.

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me,” he said looking away ashamed. “I should go.”

He stood up trying to flee as quickly as possible and was just about to reach for the doorknob when she appeared beside him stopping him. “Where do you think you’re going?” she asked annoyed.

He stared over at her his eyes shocked and confused.

“Look, we’ve been together now for almost a year,” she began assuredly. “And all this time not once have you tried anything with me. Maybe I think it’s time you stopped…being that way.” Her cheeks blushed slightly and she looked away not believing what she had just said.

What is she saying? he thought backing a step. This was not how he had foreseen it happening! It was like being ambushed from all sides. I have no idea how to escape this onslaught!

“I want you to stay,” she admitted shyly.

His eyes widened even further and he took another step back. “Chidori…” he squeaked out suddenly feeling very vulnerable and cornered.

“Sousuke,” she whispered walking up to him lightly grabbing the front of his shirt in her fingers. “Please stay.”

His body was reacting wildly and uncontrollably with each passing second. He felt like he was losing more and more control the closer she got. In one second their entire relationship had changed and he was standing there trying to catch up emotionally.

Was this truly going to be the consummation of their relationship?

He had tried to avoid this very instance for reasons he couldn’t explain but he knew it was bound to happen eventually. Kurz had lectured him numerous times about this very instance, but he never allowed the discussion to progress very far. He had even privately envisioned the day they would be together like this but he really had no idea if he was ready for something of this magnitude.

“Do you know what you’re saying?” he asked his voice high and squeaky.

She took a deep breath knowing exactly what she was saying but not believing her own actions and words. “I’m tired of pretending like being close to you doesn’t affect me!” she blurted out shoving him forcefully against the door. “When I thought I had lost you I felt like I had died inside. And yes, maybe I want to be close to you right now—closer than we have ever been before because I don’t want to feel that way ever again,” she said her eyes filling with tears.

He hated the tears, swore he would never be able to comprehend how to handle them. Female emotions were just not something he was accustomed to, even though he had been around her all this time. And here she was, standing here before him pleading with him to stay when she knew full well what was going to happen.

“Say something, please,” she said letting her arms fall to her sides in defeat. “I can’t stand-”

Grabbing her by the shoulders he yanked her into his arms kissing her firmly but gently. This was something he had always wondered privately about, what it would be like to make love, to make love to her. And he wasn’t completely ignorant of how things worked, he was just painfully shy about it. It was something he held in high regard, something he didn’t take lightly.

And that night in Tajikistan when they had kissed there had definitely been something there, something kindling deep within him. But he was always too afraid to face the emotions involved because they made him feel weak and defenseless, much like he was feeling right now. And he wasn’t sure he could handle it either.

It felt like her entire existence was meant to lead up to this very moment. Am I ready for this? Is this going to change us? What if he doesn’t think he can protect me after this? Is he going to leave me again? She was so scared but at the same time she knew there was no going back. After Canada she was so frightened she would never see be able to be with him like this again. The emotions were so raw they were tearing her up inside.

His hands cupped her cheeks as he pulled away from the kiss his breathing uneven, his lips just a breath from hers. “Selective full auto and single shot modes of fire,” he whispered softly against her lips.

Casting him a confused glance, she decided to ignore his military ramblings. Taking his hands in hers she took steps backwards pulling him with her, all the time keeping her eyes down. She was so embarrassed and afraid, she didn’t want him to see it in her eyes.

Why does this have to be so awkward! she thought as they crossed the threshold of her bedroom. And why do I have to be so nervous! I can handle this…it’s like any other thing in life. I have to face it head on with no fears. This is my decision…I want to do this with him. I have thought about it for a while now and I’m tired of being scared!

Sousuke tried to calm his own nerves as he let her pull him into her bedroom. This is not a problem, his mind echoed as he took tiny steps with her. You can operate a ten ton arm slave, take down a dozen men bare-handed, this should be no trouble at all…

Built-in holographic or optical scopes with magnification up to 6X…

She sat down on the edge of her bed still keeping her eyes down out of embarrassment. The light was on and she silently wished that her arm was about ten feet longer so she could turn it off. She felt like she wanted to hide in the darkness she was so nervous. It was hard to believe they were going to do this!

Kneeling down in front of her he once again wanted to make sure this was what she really wanted. It wasn’t common for a guy to take sex so seriously but Sousuke wasn’t an average guy. He respected her, and if she even had one ounce of doubt he would stop immediately.

“Chidori?” he said softly his throat dry and raspy.

“Yes,” she replied sensing what he was asking before he even said it taking fistfuls of his shirt in her hands.

All his intense training and hours of meditation and he was broken down in mere seconds by one woman. But she wasn’t just any woman, she was Kaname Chidori, the one woman in this insane world who made perfect sense to him. In one way it felt dangerous, reckless, and completely out-of-line and in the another it felt like something they should have done a long time ago. What had changed? he asked himself watching her small slender fingers as they grasped the front of his shirt.

He sat back on his heels staring up at her as she blushed again trying to hide her embarrassment. Reaching out he touched her hand urging her to down and pulled her into his arms. There was no time for thought, no time for reason; it was just them. And nothing short of an enemy airstrike could disturb this moment.

Leaning down he kissed her again this time softly, lightly and she reached up wrapping her arms around his neck. Whatever was driving him to extreme arousal must have begun to subside a while ago because he realized that what he was feeling now was actually his own body’s natural response. It was a little unnerving at first to think he was letting something loose that he had kept deep inside of him for so long and he tried to concentrate on other things.

Pulling away from the kiss she let her hands trail down the front of his shirt her fingertips tracing lightly over the buttons. “Can you turn the light out?” she whispered softly still unable to look at him.

“Affirmative,” he said standing up walking over and flicking the lamp off.

The room suddenly became awash in moonlight, their eyes only taking seconds to adjust. He stood there taking a deep breath trying to settle his nerves as he watched her stand up and walk to him. This had to be the most unabated moment of his life, he thought as she approached him. He tried desperately to calm his heightened senses and took a deep breath.

“I’m a little scared,” she whispered staring down at the hardwood floor beneath her feet.

“I can’t imagine you being scared of anything,” he admitted staring at the top her head.

Her eyes flew to his in shock. “Really?” she asked feeling a little less reluctant.

He nodded. “You are one of the bravest people I know, Chidori.”

“Thank you,” she said stepping closer placing her hands on his forearms. All these new foreign feelings and she was trying her best to keep up with them; she could only imagine how he must be feeling.

“Should I kiss you again?” he asked innocently.

She giggled blushing again. Stop acting so stupid and just do something, Kaname! she scolded herself. If I don’t do something he’s just going to stand there confused. You’ve seen enough movies where the leading couple make love; it’s not rocket science!

“Sousuke, do you trust me?” she asked staring up at him.

“Yes,” he said wondering why she would ask him such a thing.

“Close your eyes,” she said nodding once.

He did taking a deep breath at the same time. It was like being trained for stealth combat; he began to focus all of his energy on what he could hear, smell, and now feel as her fingertips slowly ran up the front of his shirt.

One by one she began to unbutton his white shirt, her motions very meticulous, yet unsteady. She had her own eyes closed trying to concentrate on anything except the thumping of her heartbeat in her ears. His pulse was quickening too with each undone button and he cleared his throat trying to calm himself.

Once she had his shirt completely undone she forced herself to open her eyes staring up at him. He looked so innocent standing there with his eyes closed and his shirt hanging open, nothing at all like the soldier she had seen on the battlefield many times before. He looked handsome, appealing, irresistible and she grinned bashfully.

With as much courage as she could muster at this point she slid her hands inside the white fabric up the taunt muscles of his chest savoring the feel of his warm skin against her palms. It felt amazingly wonderful to finally touch him this way but at the same time she was shaking inside.

He could feel her warm fingers trembled lightly against his skin and he knew she must be just as tense as he was. And something just seemed right about removing his shirt, so he obeyed his instinct and peeled it off tossing it to the floor, his eyes still closed. He felt so warm and his head was beginning to spin.

I should do something, he thought. Should I kiss her again? Should I take her shirt off too?

He opted for removing her shirt as well and opened his eyes reaching trembling fingers toward her blouse. Where are the buttons?! His eyes darted everywhere panic on his face. Improvise. He grabbed the hem of her t-shirt and yanked it over her head tossing it beside his. His bold action surprised her but at the same time she liked the way he took charge, a side of him she didn’t see often.

The sight of her standing there in her bra was enough to make him faint but he held his composure. His pants were beginning to feel extremely tight and unbearable and he turned his thoughts to something neutral like Kurz had told him.

Mounted advanced red-dot reflex laser-sight…

Without another thought and before he lost his nerve he swept her up in his arms like he had seen Kurz playfully do to Melissa once…though he hoped the outcome wasn’t the same that poor Sgt. Weber received. Kaname gasped at the action, a smile and a girlish giggle escaping her lips. What had gotten into him, she wondered.

He turned around laying her gently on the bed leaning over her as he crawled over top of her. He chased away any nervous thoughts and concentrated on how beautiful she looked with her dark hair spread out beneath her head. Her eyes stared up at him innocently, trusting and he let his breath out slowly. Her lips were slightly parted and this time he wanted to kiss her, needed to kiss her—it was not a decision, it felt natural, normal.

Leaning down he lightly grazed his lips across hers then captured them in a more longing deep kiss that sent shivers down to her toes. She clung to him her fingers lacing through his soft hair, savoring the feel of his lips as he kissed her over and over. And when she felt his tongue touch her lower lip she sighed into his mouth mimicking his motions.

Deepening the kiss he savored her, tasted her, let her take over his senses completely. And as he felt her hands running down his forearms, the last bit of tension left his body and something very warm and inviting replaced it. Where is all this coming from?!

Taking one of his hands in hers, she guided him up her stomach and over one of her breasts. He panicked for just a second then calmed himself immediately.

Rotating bolt with 7 locking lugs…

She wouldn’t allow him to pull away and continued to kiss him deeply as he massaged her breast gently beneath his palm. Normally she’d be smashing him over the head repeatedly for all the things he was doing right now! He felt like he was going to wake up any minute and prayed for courage.

Instinct took over and she wrapped one of her legs around his waist pulling him closer to her as they continued to kiss each other deeply, passionately. Her hips began to grind against his and for the first time ever she heard him groan inwardly. The idea made her want to smile triumphantly and she shifted beneath him to get even closer to him.

Their bodies were so close he swore they could easily meld into one person. He was beginning to understand why Kurz acted the way he did around women; this was so…intoxicating. She felt so good in his arms, soft and warm, her hands touching him everywhere. He could get used to this, used to feeling her this close.

Moment of truth, Kaname, she told herself. He’s either going to freak out when I do this or he’s into this as much as I am right now. Without another thought she reached down grabbing the buckle of his belt fidgeting with it awaiting his tensed response. But he just moved to her neck leaving wet kisses all over her. She was so distracted she could barely focus on the task of removing his belt.

“Kaname,” he whispered in her ear between kisses. It sounded strange to hear him whisper her name in such a passionate tone and it sent shivers down her spine and up her thighs. A small moan slipped past her lips and she clung tighter to him still working the belt buckle.

After a few minutes he grew impatient and leaned up undoing the buckle sliding the belt free from the loops of his pants. His eyes were glazed over with passion and she stared up breathless feeling like she was dreaming. He looked so different, so masculine; he was so swept away in the moment it made the breath leave her lungs. She was making he feel that way and it gave her more courage than she thought possessed.

Sitting up she kissed him again her hands holding his face. Reaching down he tugged at the button of her pants breaking away from her lips when it proved difficult. “Single guide rod, with return spring,” he muttered quietly.

Before she could question his statement he had them off and she was on her back again beneath him. The room was spinning above her as she watched him remove his own and closed her eyes allowing herself to be bashful just once more. She heard him toss them to the floor and felt him settle between her legs, his undergarments brushing up against hers.

“What about protection?” she whispered a small blush staining her cheeks.

“I have my 9mm under the mattress and tear gas in the drawer next to the bed,” he replied kissing her neck again.

“Not that!” she screamed her blush worsening.

He leaned up confusion in his eyes. “Oh,” he said blushing a little himself.

“I don’t have anything,” she admitted feeling stupid for rushing into this without being prepared.

“Be right back,” he said getting up and walking out of the room. Seconds later he returned carrying something in his hand and laid back on top of her sliding a small wrapped object into her hand. Versatile and useful in any situation!

She stared at him confused for a second then decided this was not the time to question his actions. There was just some things you didn’t want to know when it came to Sousuke, she thought to herself. She palmed it trying to remember what the teacher had showed them in Sex Education class last semester. This was all too real!

Suddenly she started losing her nerve and he could see it in her eyes. He leaned down kissing her again, removing any remnants of doubt that had been floating in her mind. “Self-adjustable gas valve,” he whispered against her lips.

He was making less sense and she wasn’t sure if it was her mind scrambling his words or his own causing him to say strange things. Deciding it was useless to comprehend him in this state, she bravely reached down between them running her hand across his taunt stomach and he physically shivered at her touch. Her fingers toyed with the waistband of his boxers as she summoned the courage to reach inside of them.

He let his head fall into the crook of her neck as he tried to calm himself. Nothing Kurz could have showed him, told him, explained to him would have ever prepared him for this, he thought as he felt her fingers move lower. His heartbeat painfully sped up his heart pounding in his chest as he held his breath. “Full automatic fire, 2 or 3 round bursts!” he shouted his voice growing louder with each second.

Stop being a coward! Her mind screamed for her to be brave and she sucked in a slow breath as her fingers moved even lower grazing against the most sensitive part of his entire body.

His eyes slammed shut and he held his breath trying to hold onto his composure as he felt her fingers curling around the length of him. His mind shattered into a thousand white shards as he let out a loud groan trying to control himself. Never in his entire life had he ever expected this to feel so amazing! It was like nothing he could ever explain and he held his breath trying to focus on losing control.

“Optional three and half times telescope sight with second 1 time red-dot sight!” he ground out.

Was he listing weapons? she thought watching sweat bead on his forehead. It was enough to distract her from her own anxiety as she started getting annoyed by his strange outbursts.

Before he lost all control he grabbed her wrist and pulled her away. It was too much all at once and he needed a second to catch his breath.

“Did I do something wrong?” she asked a little concerned.

“Negative,” he whispered his voice choppy.

He had to act quickly before she started getting worried again and he took the condom from her ripping it open. He had never put one on before and he just stared at it for a second his mind working through the mechanics quickly before reaching down rolling it on.

With slow intent he eased her panties down and off tossing them into the pile on the floor along with his own. She slammed her eyes shut embarrassment covering her face and held her breath. She just wanted to crawl into the closest hole and hide forever. No one had ever seen her this way and it was so uncomfortable!

Settling between her thighs he leaned down kissing her deeply, quickly washing away any shame she had felt just seconds ago. He moved back to her neck placing a trail of kisses down and across her collarbone sending hot chills spreading all over her body. His tongue was hot and his lips were soft yet demanding against her skin; all she could do was hold onto him as he worshipped her with kisses.

“Chidori,” he muttered as he edged himself just slightly inside of her.

Her eyes squinted preparing for the pain that she was told would come but as he eased further inside of her all she felt was a slight uncomfortable feeling. The further he was inside of her the more she pulled him closer holding onto him tightly. She adjusted so quickly to him that all fear had vanished instantly and was replaced with a intoxicating excitement.

“30-rounds translucent plastic box magazines,” he continued to mumble trying to think of anything but what was happening at this very second. He could barely believe it was happening in the first place but he had no regrets. He truly loved Kaname, more than he thought he was ever capable of.

“Sousuke,” she whispered their bodies intertwined tightly. It was as if she were floating on a cloud in his arms and she kept her eyes closed not wanting to lose the feeling. They were taking the biggest step in their relationship and she could barely believe they were doing this!

He began to slowly move inside of her, his mind racing with images of taking apart guns and cleaning them. Feeling the parts in his hands, running his fingers over the fine steel. But when he opened his eyes it was Kaname’s soft skin beneath his fingers moaning lightly, her fingers grasping his hips as he moved slowly within her.

Over and over he withdrew only to return to the drugging warmth of her body. They clung to each other their breathing ragged and their bodies sweating as he moved rhythmically inside of her, each thrust matching the one before. Something was beginning to build inside of him and he closed his eyes trying to once again imagine anything but what he was doing at that moment. “Dual sight system with 40mm AG36 under-barrel grenade launcher!”

Kaname let out a moan as her insides seemed to tense all at the same time, her mind going completely blank. Before she could form a coherent thought, a nagging feeling gripped her mind and body completely and she exploded with the most intense pleasurable feeling she had ever felt in her life. She couldn’t stop her cries of ecstasy this time as she clung to him, her body racked by wave after wave of subsiding pleasure.

Her mind went blank and she held him closely burying her face in his neck as he held her tightly. He couldn’t hold back anymore, her cries sent him over the edge. All thoughts escaped his mind and he succumbed to the overwhelming flames of desire that had consumed his entire body.

Intense heat burst through him and he gripped her tightly groaning deeply as he allowed himself for the first time to let his body take full control of him. No deadlines, no fears of being followed, no orders; it was just this massive overpowering sensation he was feeling in her arms. He had never felt so close to someone before and he couldn’t imagine feeling this way about anyone else.

Covered in sweat, breathing heavy they both stared into each other eyes unable to fathom what had just transpired between them. It was like watching a movie and they were the leading roles…she stifled the tears threatening to expel from deep within her. They had just made love for the first time ever and all she felt like doing was crying! What was wrong with her, she thought. We just shared something that should make me feel happy!

He saw the tears welling and cringed inwardly. “Did I do something wrong?” he asked between labored breaths.

She let out a shaky breath and shook her head. “No, you stupid idiot,” she mumbled closing her eyes.

He stared down at her his heart still pounding lightly. What had they just done?! It shocked him but at the same time it made him feel so close to her, closer than he had ever felt before. He finally understood what she had said to him before about just wanting to feel close to him. Not being with her, not holding like this even in a non-sexual way, now seemed worse than death.

“I love you, Chidori,” he whispered laying his head on her shoulder.

That was it, the tears just began to pour from her eyes uncontrollably; she hated that she couldn’t stop them. Wrapping her arms around him even tighter she cuddled her face into his neck, his hair tickling her nose. She closed her eyes and sniffled trying to steady her voice as she said, “I love you, you big stupid military freak.”

The End.